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Vivian at 2

Thursday, May 21, 2015
While I haven't blogged here in a while, 
I wanted to write a short post about Vivian being two.

Vivian turned two last month and it was like a switch turned and all of a sudden she was a toddler.




For example..
She's started talking a lot, we can have short conversations most of the time.
She has pretty epic melt downs and everyday I think "this is it.. what everyone warns you about..",
wrong. It gets worse. 
She is getting sneaky and is figuring out how to work the system (think fake crying and opening one eye to see if your looking/reacting).


…and yet she is getting even sweeter than I ever thought possible.
I'll bump into her while walking and she says "sahee".
She will kiss each scrape and bruise and after tell you that it's "ahhl bet"
Her smile…?!! The cheesiest little grin in the world, and it's uniquely her.
After nursing in the middle of the night I'll roll away from her and she moves in closer to spoon me, my mama heart has secretly come to need that in order to sleep.. sometimes I eagerly await her "maaaaa" cry in the middle of the night so I can sleep until morning with her.


She is exhausting, exhilarating, charming, challenging…
& lovely in every single way.


Vivian Alexandra Sommer,
 I can not believe that you are ours forever.
My life changed in so many ways the day you were born.
You saved me.
I will spend the rest of my life showing you just how grateful I am for that.

Love you always,
Mommy


End of the Year Update!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014
I know that it's been awhile since I've blogged, but it's been a busy few months for our family. We've been house hunting, road triping, visiting with friends and family, and working on our passions and businesses. So here's an quick update on our little family while we're still in 2014!


Vivian has been talking a lot more! She understand pretty much everything we say to her and says a new word almost every day. She hasn't slept in her crib in MONTHS haha, but her wake ups have gone down to 2 or 3 a night. She is still nursing every few hours during the day, and for awhile I was having a hard time with it.. but I've recently chosen to enjoy this stage in our lives and if she wants to nurse every hour, I'm gonna enjoy every second of it. We got her off of her pacifier a little over two months ago and the transition wasn't too bad, but she definitely started nursing more so there was a trade off. We've recently started giving it to her at night again when I need a break, just to fall asleep then she spits it out. This decision was so hard after all of our hard work breaking the habit (she only had a pacifier to sleep anyways) but she didn't really completely ditch the habit, just replaced it with nursing haha. So if it gives me a little break at night, bring it on! We've always been a co-sleeping family but I would love to get her sleeping in her own bed/going to sleep before us so we can have some time at the end of the day to collect but again, I'm enjoying this time in out lives and not rushing or stressing to change it.


Kevin has been working hard, as always :). He went to a Crossfit seminar last month in Utah and Vivian and I got to tag along! It was our first road trip as a family of three and Vivian's first hotel stay. While Kevin was in his seminar Vivian and I explored Newpark in the freshly fallen deep snow. We ate pancakes, went swimming for the first time, and ran all over the hotel together. The drive was really easy and fun, it made me think about all of the long drives Kevin and I went on when we were still in Alaska. Vivian did really well during the 5 hour drive so I see a lot of road trips in our future! I'm really proud of Kevin for always wanting to be better. Be a better husband, father, and coach.. and it makes me want to be better.



My last blog post was about my doula workshop and I have since completed it, attended my first birth, and taken on a second client! I really love this work. It is so fulfilling and spiritually nourishing and I can't believe that I get to do this! I've been slowly getting my requirements completed for certification and am already looking forward to more certifications in the future. I've been building my doula business slowly (but surely!) since I completed the workshop. I've recently launched my Facebook page and have had a "soft opening" of my website. It's been nerve wrecking wondering if I'm doing all of this the right way. It wasn't until I realized that as long as I'm working from the heart, from a good place.. that I can't be wrong. I love this!

We've been looking for a house to buy for the past three months and while nothing is ever set in stone when you're buying a house until you have the keys in your hand, we found one! We're pretty far into the process and hopefully everything will be completed by the end of January. I'm sure this will have its's own blog post when the time comes :)




Our December has been so fun and filled with family, friends, and joy. Vivian was really into Christmas this year and has been a very good mommy to the baby doll she got haha. We want to thank everyone who thought of us this holiday season and know that we are so thankful for each and every one of you!





We hope that 2014 has been an incredible year for all of you and that the next year is even better!  Happy New Year!!


Doula Thoughts.

Monday, November 3, 2014

I start my doula training workshop this week and couldn't be more excited! It's four days, 8 hours each day. It'll be the longest I've ever been away from Vivian (I've only ever been away from her for 6 hours!!). When I had found out about how long these daily sessions where I almost started thinking about not doing it because I couldn't think about possibly being away from Vivian that long. But this is my dream, and the time away from Vivian will be good for me not only because I'm so passionate about this but the past few weeks have been very trying for us. So a little break will be nice for the both of us, but I already can't wait to come home and nurse her! 

Kevin's mom is going to watch Vivian the first two weekdays that I am in the workshop. She was able to take work off and I am so relieved that Vivian will be with her Grandma who she already knows and loves so much. Then Kevin and maybe one of his sisters will take her for the last two weekend days. 

I would be lying if I didn't say I wasn't nervous! I have had a few moments of doubt about if I can be strong enough to follow through with everything that is needed to start a successful doula business. I also worry about if I will be able to help a woman realize her dream birth, or support her emotionally if that dream isn't fulfilled. I have no business experience, so naturally that part intimidates me! But I know if I work hard and from the right place, ask for help when I need it, and remain focused my on my goals that I can do it. This is something I love, and when you're doing something you love.. how can you fail?

I'm excited to join the sisterhood that comes with becoming a doula. I'm joining thousands of women who come to the profession for many reasons, all unique and wonderful. I day dream about the day that I witness my first birth and the life changing energy that will fill the room. 

So send your good vibes to me this week while I take the first big step in my training to be come a doula!
 …and hope that Vivian is nice to her babysitters while I'm gone haha!





Family Pictures By Glean Photography

Monday, October 27, 2014

So! We finally had some updated professional pictures taken for the first time since Vivian was 12 days old. I chose Glean Photography here in Boise because I really love Jamie's "eye" for pictures and her editing is gorgeous and natural. We know her though Crossfit, so she's basically the complete package- strong, beautiful, and talented! She was really good with Vivian who wasn't necessarily uncooperative but she definitely wanted to be on the move, and these pictures don't even show how squirmy she was. I can't wait to work with her again. 












If you're in the Boise area and looking for a photographer I definitely recommend Glean Photography. Be sure to check out her blog as well!!

Thanks Jamie for capturing our little family at this time in our lives. I know we'll look back on these pictures fondly for many years to come. 

Fall in Boise.

Monday, October 20, 2014
So while I'm like a month and a half late posting about Fall in the blog world, I'm going to do it anyway. Because it finally just now feels like Fall has come around to the City of Trees.
The leaves are changing and falling but the temperatures are still in the mid to high 70's. I don't know if it's Alaskan in me but… I've been over the heat for a few months now! I love it when it rains and get so excited to see some overcast and cooler temperatures. I think this mostly has to do with my wardrobe. Since I AM from one of the coldest if not thee coldest city in America I have zero warm weather clothes so I really get excited when I break out my precious jeans and Uggs! 
Also, you don't have to shave your legs as much, and as a mother… well lets just say aint nobody got time for that. 
Haha, she's always had a thing for having her mouth open in pictures. 
She stayed like this for one minute.

So yay for Fall and pants
& this adorable little girl playing in leaves

Vivian at 18 Months.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

There is just so much that Vivian does that I absolutely love and want to remember forever so I thought I'd share them here so I can look back. 

We had a rough patch of sleep awhile back, but things have started to look up. We did try to "sleep train", but did it in a way we felt comfortable with. We would put her in her crib while she was awake and if she started crying, we picked her up right away and soothed her. When she stopped we'd put her back down before she fell asleep and of course she cried right away haha. We did that 10 times (!!) before I accidentally rocked her for too long and she fell asleep. She woke up and I repeated the process about 5 times with a little more fussing in between and on the 5th time she climbed out of her crib! I ran out of the room so quickly because I knew exactly what had happened. She was fine and her pacifier and blanket were on the ground so I think thats why she wanted to get out. So needles to say I finally moved the crib to the lowest level (I know… I should have done it a long time ago, but she seriously has never, ever shown any interest in climbing before!). She must have used her little money toes to help her get up there Because we don't have bumpers or anything. 

Now she sleeps with me in the spare bedroom so Kevin can get some sleep and she's only waking up once maybe twice. It just works out so much better, she is the biggest cuddler EVER! It's probably one of the best things to wake up and have this tiny little human snuggle into you and wrap her arm around you and fall right back asleep. As far as sleep training goes, we probably won't be doing it again. We don't like the idea of crying it out and while I know it's worked for a lot of people I know it's just not our thang ;) I don't complain about not getting sleep too much (except to Kevin haha) because I know we basically did it to ourselves haha. I think Vivian will sleep much better/easier if she was in a real bed so I've been looking at twin beds, that way I can lay with her until she falls asleep and get out easier than in the crib (how's that for a mental image? haha).

Just like every other child right now, she is in love with the movie Frozen. We listen to the Disney Pandora station and whenever a song from Frozen comes on she stops whatever she is doing and stares at the stereo then starts spinning with one arm out. That's how she dances!! Like a little ballerina. I don't dance like that and she won't dance any other way haha. 


She says "mama", "dada", "hi", and "bye" and that's about it for "real" words. But she says "dadog" for dog and a version of "dadag" for Grandpa whenever Kevin's mom comes to watch her (they either FaceTime him or he comes over while I'm gone). She can make an elephant sound (complete with an arm going up like a trunk), woofs like a dog, and moves her arms like a monkey. 


She is finally getting into books! She'll open them up and babble "baba bababa" while pointing to things on a page. She lets me read to her (longer than a sentence or two!) and gets into it. She knows what a lot of things are when I ask her to point them out. She has a Curious George book with shapes that pop out, I think thats her favorite. 

She understands a ton of stuff. We can tell her to "squat" and she does one (perfectly, I might add). She can throw garbage into the trash can, and often will do it unprovoked when she's done with a wrapper or something. She tells us when she has a dirty diaper and even has started walking to the bathroom when she needs to be changed. I set her on the potty just to get her used to the idea and I talk to her about it while I'm changing her diaper. 

Recently I've started to think she just might have a little OCD haha. When she walks into the kitchen and there's a drawer or cabinet at her level that is open she has to shut it. The other night we we're laying in bed with Kevin and she gets up to shut the bathroom door and then the bedroom door then crawled back into bed. Haha, I don't know if it's good or bad but it's cute. 

As always she likes to be outside, getting dirty or wet. She's loved playing in the leaves this fall and digging in the dirt out back. 

She has 4 molars, her 4 front, and two bottom teeth, and she's acting like she's about to get some more this week. 
Her hair is getting thicker and while I can kinda get a little pony put in, I'll spare her the embarrassment haha. 

She has her little diva moments when she lays on the ground and balls up, or makes the silliest fake sad/crying face. She can usually be coerced out of it with a quick distraction and she really only does this at home or at the Crossfit gym (her second home)

I know everyone says "oh this is the funnest stage!", but every stage has been fun for me in it's own way. While I personally preferred the newborn "nap-all-day-every-day" stage, having Vivian communicate more and more with me is really exciting. She is so smart and funny.
 My favorite? When she leans in to give me a kiss when I say "I love you".

Thoughts on Character.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

When I think about raising Vivian I get overwhelmed. I want to protect her from the imperfect things about life. I have dreams for her, I want her to be a smart, happy, and genuine person. While I make these grand plans for my 1 and a half year old.. I know that children will be who they want to be in the end. As a parent (feel free to roll your eyes at me at any time seasoned parents! or my own parents… haha) I know that I can only teach her right from wrong and hope that she makes the right choices. 

 I want her to think for herself. Have respect for herself and other people. I want her to have a story, and to share that story with the world in her own unique way. I hope she has a free spirit and stays up late thinking and dreaming about the world. I want her to be more concerned with her character than her appearance. 

In a world that is already so driven by appearances thanks to social media, I worry that Vivian will struggle with her identity. Will she know who she is without needing validation? Will she think that having a life that looks good is more important than one that feels good?

I am careful with the words I use when I talk to her, knowing that one day I won't be able to control what she hears. I am careful with the way I view and talk about myself knowing that one day how I talk to her about myself will become her inner voice.

I know growing up a girl is hard and it will mostly likely only be harder when Vivian gets to that point. But I know that I will do everything I possibly can to raise a daughter who is strong and unwavering in her self confidence and brimming with compassion. I'll help to build her character so that when the time comes for her to make the hard decisions.. she'll already know who she is and the kind of person she wants to be. 



 
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